A comeback..

its been more than 10 days since I last blogged.. one reason for this was that i didnt want emma watson's pic to be displaced from the top of my blog page..:)

and now although i have some what recovered from that charm, emma and her sweet smile will continue to enthrall me for a long time to come.. i am now also a member of the emma watson community on orkut.. the other place where i spend a lot of my lukkha time:)

the last few days have been neither too good nor too bad.. there is a mixed feeling within me. first the happiness of getting rid of the endsems.. but that was only short-lived as the grades started to come in.. at first, it seemed good that i was getting 8 consistently in all subjects (an improvement from last sem without any reasonable change in the effort level) and life seemed a pleasant journey.. but when i heard that many ppl are getting 10 consistently, the happy feeling somehow vanished like a puff of smoke. I am not very sure why this happens? why do we always have to compare our performance with others?? why cant we be just satisfied with what we get?

one reason to feel bad in this sem was that i missed a higher grade in almost every subject by a narrow margin.. that does not happen too frequently.. and never has it happened before with me. but the good part is that this low feeling does not linger around too much:) one evening out with friends and i seem to forget it all.. after all, grades are not that important in life and maybe after a month or so, i will be with a job and possibly a good app as well.. this power of choice is what we all seem to be looking for.. but it simply eludes us..

nevertheless, there will be a lot of time to ponder over all this later.. as for now, i have to start gathering stuff for apping and i am still unaware as to what the procedures at my apping univs are.. this apping stuff will really prove to be a strenuous task.. but then what worth is something where you dont have to put in a fight??